Why am I here...?

I am here to unlock my 'feelings' and my 'thoughts' on what is my double life. I can't seem to do it on a one to one session with my therapist and i can never seem to tell my Best Friend everything i want to. This is because i don't like to share my emotions. All my life i have kept myself to myself.I have always been the shy, quiet girl that nobody ever even realises is in the room.A life time of this has led to my carrying my thoughts and feelings in the same way. By burying and batting away everything i feel, i have built up a 'WARNING' sign, which gives out an automatic "i don't know" answer whenever the topic of my thoughts and feelings gets approached.
This is the aim of my blog. To uncover, for myself, what i am actually feeling and try and figure out some sort of way on how i can deal with the problems in my life. 

I am a 20 year old Jayne Doe, leading a double life. 
'Jayne Doe' is the name given to an unidentified woman. That is my alter ego, simply because I have no idea who this person is. I'm not mad or crazy, I'm very much down to earth and in sync with a lot of life issues. However i have my own problems, just like every other human being on the planet. 
I am suffering from Bulimia. I have NOT been suffering from this condition all my life. Its is very new to me, triggered by another main issue in my life.
What is my sexuality? Will i ever be 100% comfortable with it? 

Throughout this blog, whoever, if anyone is reading it, will find out about all the issues that attach to my problems and insecurities. Im transfixed in an on going vicious cycle and all i want to do is have some form of relation for myself and for others. 
Life changes at any moment. I have now realised that. 

-Jayne Doe.